Sometimes to let you know.

...I am odd

2006-09-27T03:09:00.000-07:00

Last night I set myself a goal to make the best bolognese so far and to have it read for my S.O. when he go home and to be awake for that time. He got home at 12:30am and then only did we eat.

I only realized this morning how little I actually slept last night. Being determined to stay awake made it a little difficult to fall asleep when I did finally decide to go to sleep. Add to that the hot cold hot cold hot cold feeling and I reckon I only really fell asleep at about 2.

My poor love over slept and there was a panic filled 4:30 wake up with lights and all. He left , I got up, switched off the light. I slept and dreamed about this abandoned town where everyone was frozen in time and I was part of a group of people who went to investigate it's re-awakening after a rich gentleman moved in to a hotel there.

Wake up again at about 5:30 , then 6, then 6:09, then 6:18, then 6:27 (can you tell my snooze lasts 9 minutes) finally got up at 6:36 and got lovingly handed a bowl of muesli.

Now to have a lift off and try and wake up.

48 days till my birthday and I think I will get my nipples down 4 days later

I Will Not

2006-07-17T02:59:00.000-07:00

On Saturday night over dinner I was telling Cacey that I no longer knew who to support in Israel anymore, who was right and who was wrong and where I would stand if I had to stand up and fight. When I was living therer for a year it was clear...The left wing movement had my support and I attended many a rally and protest. I believed their strive for 2 states for 2 nations was rightous and that the palestenians deserved a country of their own. I would deffend the non-extreem palestinian people that I had met and while I didnt condone the suicide attacks I did understand the frustration.

Over this weekend I have been given my answer: Where will I stand up and fight? No where close to Israel. You might say I am a coward because at a time of war I choose to run away, you are wrong. At this time, for this war I choose to stay away because I do not believe either side is justified. If any of you have played Worms , you will remember the little clip at the begining where each worm brings out the bigger gun to outdo the other and I believe this is what is happening right now. I believe that Isrel deserves the katusha's for its response, to the kindnapping of 2 soldiers and killing of others, was exaggerated and I belive that the lebonese deserve the bombings because they had created a sanctury for hesbollah for man many years.

I am fuming that this is happening, my family is in reach of those katushas and RaÕamÕs , 1 of those that landed yesterday was 10km away from where m grandmother lives. My mother, the clever woman that she is, wants to go to israel to be with my grandmother(instead of bringing her here). My cousinÕs babies are only just begining life and their first years will be marred by a couple of terrorist freedom fighters and politicinas who dont know how to function without their sixshooters locked and loaded.

Do I support Israel? NO! do I support Hezbollah? Hell NO! I support my family, my Israeli friends and the millions of innocent people caught in this stupid war and its stupid objectives and the whole childish, egotistical, idiocity of all this.

I will sit saftley on my chair here in South Africa, waiting for some one to make a comment I can appose, but I will not stand up and fight because I have nothing to stand up for.

...bad donk! No Fruin!

2006-04-10T06:33:00.000-07:00

It was a regular Friday morning. I was sitting at my eMac at college checking what was new on darklight and darkside when I saw a sad little post by Cacey about her not being able to get to PE for her son’s 15th so you know what I did? I volunteered to take her. I honestly didn’t give it too much thought, I just volunteered. If I had thought about it a bit longer I probably would have called myself insane while waiting for her to pick up the phone, but I still woulda dunnit.

So Friday night came and went, underworld was pretty, but not _shiney_. Major glitches and matrix rip offs and I wish they would have digitally mastered the eyes so you could actually _see_ they were wearing contacts.

Saturday morning arrived and while Jacktar went to the airport to drop some people off I went home, cleared my car and then packed for the journey. Picked Cacey up and then went to fetch Jacktar. Was the same usual drive to the 1stop and I handled that. From there Jack drove till we reached a nice little farm stall called “The Blue Crane”. The products were wonderful (if not a little expensive) and they ranged from loads of different honeys to lavender syrup. The shop owner herself was not what you would expect from a farm stall outside of Swellendam. She saw my pentacle and went all Wiccan on us. She plans on dancing under the full moon sky clad so that she can look as youthful as Cacey. Apart from that she was really nice and let us pick some Greek chilies (will dry them out and grow them).

From there I drove through what was definitely the worst part of the road. For a lot of the way it was fine till you reach Wilderness. From there they are doing road works all the way to knysna. What would normally be a 120 zone is 60 and keeping that speed (‘cause you know if there is a temp sign up they definitely have cameras and they were there) was very difficult with several people driving up my bum. Most of them were in a rush to kill themselves, crossing over yellow lines and into on coming traffic.

We stopped in Knysna for a bite to eat. Went to 360° South. The service was slow (although we were in a hurry which may have compounded the issue) Cacey and I had a croissant with turkey, mayo and emmental which was really good and I didn’t even get to see what Jack’s Ouma bread with pastrami and cheese and salad looked like before he swallowed it.

The rest of the trip through plett (which is huge and they play polo there) and the garden route was beautiful, we even got detoured and 1 part where they force you to take the round way route which was great because you could see J-bay from up high, it was beautiful.

We arrived at the huge house where in Cacey’s parents and son live and went inside quickly to change. Then we bundled into a little freelander and went to YinThai. The food = wonderful, the company = wonderful, the service = crap. They had 1 waiter for 6 tables. A tiny buffet and no management. Didn’t help any that I was very sleepy and nicotine deprived.

Desert was disappointing and the hot jasmine water (over diluted jasmine green tea) didn’t help. On the way back in the little freelander I fell asleep, which felt good. Got back to the house and climbed into the very white crinkly clean bed and slept…well not so good. Woke up and had a shower, got out the shower and had a foot bath. The bath was built badly. So the water kept flowing off the side onto the floor not into the bath and getting out was an extreme sport because the bath was a lot higher then the floor. At least there was hot water.

Had an interesting breakfast of cereal, tea and scrambled eggs in the microwave. Don’t sea the point really; they come out so much better in a pan with some butter and a fork. *shrug*

We set off around 10:30 and took a nice leisurely drive back to home. Stopping off in Knysna, where we went to the spur this time. REALLY good food. The salad valley was wonderful and the steak was perfect. We then set off again, again I drove though the construction part and again I had idjits who expected me to drive in the yellow line while there were pedestrians everywhere. If they wanted to put themselves in a coffin or a cell that was their prerogative and I returned their zaps with zest. Sometimes I wish I had a big neon sign over my car or a loudspeaker like the traffic cops have and tell people exactly what I think about them and their driving; most times I know this would be a very bad idea. We stopped off in riversdale at the wimpy and got a cool mixy cup thingy. It rocks!

We got back to Cape Town at around 8 and dropped Cacey off at home. Went back to Jacks and went to sleep. I slept… A little better. It’s those damn moaning whores I am sure of it.

Had sex for breakfast and my day started off great. I have now killed a Lindt Gold bunny and left some for my honey bunny and I still have loads of chocolate to work through…yay :)

oh and here are the pics

...this is a _wonderful_ country

2006-04-04T01:39:00.000-07:00

Really! A country where you can tell a cop he is a liar or tell woman they deserve to be raped if they wear a g-string. A country where the people in power regards HIV and AIDS as dangerous as the common cold or can lie in court about Zulu cultural laws.

I am sure most people have waxed lyrical about the Zuma case on their blogs. “I knew there was only a slim chance that I could contract HIV from a woman”. If that’s what a former deputy president is thinking, what does it say for HIV/AIDS education in this country? If it’s true about him not being “allowed” to leave her wanting according to Zulu tradition (and some of my sources say otherwise) then he should have bloody well gone to the corner café and bought a box of rubbers. They are not that difficult to come by (or come in for that matter). When last did he get tested? Maybe he hasn’t contracted HIV from her but if he is HIV positive he runs a risk of compounding her current infection.

Leading from that is his throng of aggressive and obviously uneducated supporters. “Women who wear these [g-string] deserve to be raped” Are we in the fucking stone age? Do people have to constantly prove that despite the façade this is still very much a 3rd world country? Besides the fact that Zuma’s accuser was apparently not wearing any underwear at the time, so how does this apply?

As for calling cops liars. That comes from my wonderful friend who crashed into my car and apologised so beautifully and humbly on the scene of the crime. He is calling the cop that wrote down his statement and filled out the accident report a liar. That he did not at any time admit to running the light. Fine call me a liar (you little piss fucker) but the cop? Have you no shame! No respect for authority?? It’s not as if the cop had anything to gain by blaming you so why would he randomly decide to write that down. Like I would randomly decide to go through an already red light, not a changing one, a red one, which had been red for a while. I really want to call the moron and tell him where to shove his antenna but that might hurt my case a little. That’s fine I have more power then he can imagine, because I have an unrelated witness. Some one who happened to be at the right place at the right time? Not a friend of mine, hell we come from very different worlds, I want to see him call him a liar too. If this goes to court he is screwed 5 ways from Sunday because my father is willing to take this that far to teach this SOB a lesson.

To top it all off I was disappointed with last nights “thunderstorm”. It was there and then gone and unless you lived far over on the boerewors side of the curtain that’s all you got. Bleh!

…I really don’t time for this

2006-03-16T00:29:00.000-08:00

Well I don’t. I am working part time, studying in some of the other time and I have no internet connection at home. I blame the trees for that. Well the wireless companies did so I can too. We cannot receive wireless internet because there are too many trees…apparently. So we are going to have to sell our souls to telskum if we are going to have any internet but if we don’t hurry up the lease will be over before the line is installed.

In other news the insurance company officially wrote off my car yesterday. For those who don’t know…here is a flashback. Friday the 24th of February was a busy day for me. I went to college, fetched Beth, went to get our hair straightened, went to Canal Walk then to Durbanville for The Fey’s birthday thingy. Then took Beth to Obs for her birthday thingy. Drove to sea point only to be told that the plans for coffee and snacks in sea point had been cancelled and due to lack of airtime it was emailed not sms’d to those participating that it was cancelled. So I left thinking “great I can now go to Beth’s birthday thingy” didn’t make it that far. Driving towards the N1 I went through an intersection, my light was green, from the waterfront side a silver Audi’s confused driver thought the lights in the middle of the intersection, being green, were signaling him to carry on and completely missed the fact that the lights on his side of the intersection, being red, were signaling him to stop. So straight through he goes, chasing the green lights straight into my car. My ABS worked, till the cable snapped because of the angle he hit my tire into, the airbags worked, and I came out safe and sound. My car came out with: Snapped break cable, broken axle, crumbled fender, scraped left front and left rear doors, broken hubcap, bend bonnet, bent valance, dented engine cover, broken grill, broken bonnet, pierced gearbox…you get it, it farked. So now I get a new car…which would be way more exciting if my car wasn’t only 4 months old.

That was a really long paragraph, but wait there is more to the story.

So the guy who crashed into me apologised profusely admitting guilt to me and the police officer. When it came to the insurance bit he told his Ins. Company that _I_ ran the red light he was going through amber (apart from the sever lack of logic as to why I would go through a red light in the middle of a red light, when my lights hadn’t _just_ changed etc) because his ins. policy states he cannot admit to guilt, sucks to be him because I have a copy of the accident report and guess what? “Driver A: He admitted he missed the light first” The English isn’t so lekker (;p) but the point is there. You cannot change a statement made on the scene of a crime. Jacob Zuma is in the same sorta shit.

Ok now that story is finished.

In other news. My parents finally met Jacktar. My dad first, breakfast at the Garden’s Center, then my mother, supper at Il Postecino in sea point (divine Italian food). My dad reckons he is a very nice guy if not a little too old and a little too goi for my but he wasn’t surprised by the goi part. He knows I don’t care about that so he is just happy I am happy. My mother said “He’s Sweet” which either means she really liked him or my father to keep her mouth shut and not say anything nasty. Who knows, don’t really care.

Work is driving me mad. We don’t have a receptionist so the work is being split up. The foreman is on leave and the driver/assistant admin decided to take sick. All in all I have precious little time. My days are also halved because of college and I have that work to do. I have to work on the 21st but its being exchanged for the 28th of April. So we can have a long weekend then. Jacktar and I might just go away for the weekend. It means Samhain won’t be on the 29th but we often don’t stick to the dates. I need a holiday and a 5 day holiday where leave is not required to be taken for it is a bonus.

That’s it for this installment. If people want to hear about anything in specific just tell me, I will post again.

Short update

2006-01-24T06:28:00.000-08:00

So last night Skylark and I started Belly dancing. Rank 0: Grace of a dying swan. Felt seriously silly but had lots of fun doing it. Stomach muscles hurt a little after but no side affects today, they will probably hit tomorrow.

DB’s aberrant group was as ruckus as usual. They now discovered they are the most powerful beings on earth. First thing they do is fight over who gets which continent.

In other, more exciting news, on the 7th of Feb I am going back to college. Yup. I am going to be a student again. Very exciting and scary, jus waiting to hear from the lecturer what I need. Ok as I wrote that sentence I got an email from here telling her exactly what I need. Going to gather all I need tomorrow and send it through.

Yay!

Ooo pretty shiny Macs
*drool*

...I need energy to write blog entries

2006-01-18T02:05:00.000-08:00

So it’s Jan 18th and that means it’s almost a month since my last post. Quite a bit has happened in that month and I guess I will put it into major events point form or something….right:

New Years Eve: It was a quiet new years in comparison to…well...any new years I haven’t spent with my parents (except for the 1 when we were in JHB and my parents let me swim at night and then later let me have some beer and champagne [but not while swimming] that was fun) Had a braai at our house, people fighting for what ever space they could get on the tiny weber (not gonna happen again) and we got nice and toasted. I went to Gotham for long enough to have a double Amarula…quickly and then went back home to bring in the New Year. Had some champagne, had more. We played I have never…which got rather interesting, drank more champagne and another spin (that’s 4th 1). Went to bed at about 2am but I believe people showed up after that *shrug* I was busy *eg*

New Years Day: Spent the better part of the day reading, sleeping and making sure BabyAcid drank water. At 4 went to Schpat’s for poker. I wasn’t going to play, just went for company but was convinced to play and I don’t regret it. Had lots of fun, good braai (Hila do you mind pork being made in same place as your food; no; which is your food; the pork chops), good company. Dave Sharp took the winnings (I can’t play, some explain), Zenstar was out first. Schpat lives in a very nice house.

So last weekend my depressive stage started again. I go through these every now and again and my world feels like the most horrible place and I cry for now reason. Previously I have had being lonely and no-body-loves-me to blame it on but it’s not the case this time. I tried being as aware of it as possible so when Jacktar couldn’t make something because of work I tried very hard not to take it personally. I didn’t manage but I didn’t take it out on him because I know it’s not his fault and he really would make it if he could. I refuse to go on meds but I will try the herbal recommendations if I get a chance to.

Moyo: Thursday I was invited by the people Jacktar was working for to Moyo. All expenses paid wine and food and really good company. The parents and the son are from Australia and the cousin is from Canada. You could tell the cousin and the son spent a lot of time together cause the aussie boy sounded more Canadian then aus.

This past weekend: Friday night was an early 1. Went to Gotham but was home by 12. Jack managed to make it too. Had a nice chat with Al and then later Jason but all in all Friday was a quiet night. Saturday I went to the horse races with my daddy. He made quiet a killing off a horse he chose because of his colour, later finding out his sire was the same sire as a previous horse my father owned. After which had lunch at home then went to see Jacktar for the 2 hours he had off, was a nice “nap”. Got home, changed clothes watched some more desperate housewives and went to Cacey to get my hair done, that took a while but I didn’t mind because we got to have a nice chat. I like chatting to Cacey. She often puts things into perspective for me and sometimes just listens, she seem to know when the right time to dispense advice is and which the right time to just listen is. Sat night was loads of fun. Gotham’s first birthday. Dave42 and Princess_Anie made it out which was a big surprise. P_A had called me earlier for plans and I had to inform her that I was busy and I felt bad about it. There is a new “lounge” at Gotham which made huge difference to the fullness of Gotham. At about 3 after quite a bit of alcohol we went to Sid and Cacey’s house and as inhibited as I was I managed to make pancakes. We then watched league of gentleman and when my pancakes finished so did my energy. I passed out on the couch and only woke up in the morning. Cacey and Sid pulled out the sleeper couch for me and I fell asleep for all of 20 minute and then…

The Break in: I get a call from Herald. “we need you to come home”(what? I left my parent’s home so people would stop making me come home) “we’ve had a break in” (oh, right, shit). So I get home in my going out clothes and unlaced docs and there are Herald, Skylark and Heralds brother and father, plus several ADT people. I get told to go check if anything is missing from my room. Now understand I thought this was just a regular break in and entry type thing so when I got to my room and found a kitchen knife on my bookshelf my heart did a belly flop…in my belly. I turn to Skylark. No, the held them at knife point and tied them up. They took about R3000 worth of my stuff but they weren’t the smartest of thieves. GlovlessGuy: *picks up scanner* “where is the charger for the laptop” Skylark: “It’s not a laptop it’s a scanner” GlovelessGuy: “oh” *puts scanner back down*. The glove they did have were our dishwashing gloves, the left banana peals everywhere, half eaten yoghurt with the spoon still in it. 2 pairs of shoes and loads of fingerprints. They also trashed Skylark and Herald’s rooms looming for the hidden cash and firearms which they were repeatedly told didn’t exist. So turns out also that our ADT radio thingy that send the signal through to ADT wasn’t working properly so when they pressed the panic button it made a lot of noise but it didn’t send a signal through to ADT. That has been fixed and the burglar bars are being put on the 1 window that didn’t have any.

So that’s the long and the *scrolls up* long of it.

..happy happy whatever holiday

2005-12-27T02:09:00.000-08:00

Merry Xmas/Happy Chanukah/ Blessid Litha/ Bah Humbug
(circle the appropriate season greeting)

So it’s been an interesting weekend, a mixture of chilled out and stressed out. Saturday was mostly stressed out. I am definitely starting cooking earlier next year and not waiting so late. However, from what I hear the Xmas / Chanukah party at our place was a success, so stress was worth it. Went to Gotham for a short while after. Chatted to a few people, strap broke, Cacey fixed strap and then the sedative in the turkey started kicking in and I was falling asleep sitting up on a bean bag. So the Goth Taxi, with Jacktar as the driver went back to our house. Went to bed and slept like the dead, seem to be doing that a lot lately, yay (

Sunday I spent reading the last of the Sandman series, Endless Nights and then watched miss congeniality 2, nothing special really, just waiting for Jacktar to finish with the tourist. Supper was using leftovers and to make something else and then to bed. Monday was much of the same.

Except I was reading witches abroad, didn’t finish it, and didn’t watch a movie. It was the same in the sense that I was waiting for Jacktar to finish with the tourists. Went with Mich to the waterfront to get Selina a tag and try finding a collar so come New Years we won’t have a heart attack if she gets out. Before hand I slept till 12ish. We got her a tag, didn’t find a collar and then Jacktar treated us to drinks and a slice of cake.

Went back to the house. Mich sorted her teddy bear stuff, Jacktar slept and I cooked. Made baby (as in little pieces of) chicken schnitzels and mash potatoes for the boys. Jacktar came back around 6 ish, he had dropped his charges at the adderly street market, which as predicted, they didn’t enjoy and 10 minutes later he was going back to fetch them. So I tagged along and Jacktar dropped the very in love newly weds at the clocktower. We went to Andiamo and had a lovely supper. I really enjoy the fact that we have so much to talk about, although I tend to do most of the talking which he claims he doesn’t mind.

Anyway today back at work and back to having dumbasses on the other side of the phone line not knowing how to do their job. At least there are fewer of them since a lot of places are closed for season.

Next weekend New Years, and It’s at our house…yay, can just crash when I am tired , in my own bed :P

...that free food tastes better

2005-12-22T03:16:00.000-08:00

So a couple of weeks ago I complained to Nando’s that the Milnerton branch was just not up to scratch. What sent me on this complaint was that I had gone through on a lunch run at about 11. They told me they were closed because they were in a staff meeting and they would be open in 20 minutes. I waited till 11:30 and went back. I got told they were only opening at 12. So I asked to speak to the manager and expressed my disgust at the fact that they don’t have their staff meetings _before_ opening time. I got a patronizing and sarcastic response.

So I complained about that, and I complained about the meager amount and he bad quality of chicken livers in a chicken liver started. I get a call the next day. “Hi is this Hila? This is Sean the manager from Nando’s Milnerton and I would like to apologise for the way I treated you. I would also like to invite you for a meal at Nando’s, come in any time and ask for Sean.” So I used my Friday “lunch break” (I don’t actually get a lunch break, I normally just eat while I work) and Sean wasn’t there.

The manager in charge that day called him and I spoke to him. He apologised for not telling me to call to check if he was there and told the manager to give me any meal I wanted and told me that I must come in again and he will treat me to the meal he promised.

Today I decided to cash in that meal since I slept over at Jack’s, who has no food in his house and therefore I couldn’t pack a lunch. Went to Nando’s, saw Sean, and ordered my started livers and a burger meal. Said I wanted it take away and Sean protested, so I said I would have the starter there and the rest take away. Longest it’s ever taken me to eat a starter chicken livers, he talked… a lot. But hey, he paid for the meal so he can at least get that.

Just finished the burger and I will eat the chips a little later but yum that was nice.

...that I didnt mean to wait this long

2005-12-19T23:40:00.000-08:00

So it’s been a while since my last post I know, but I have been busy: moving, working, with Jacktar. So now I have a few minutes while I wait for the nurafen to kick in and I have a few hours of painless bliss.

When are they going to bring nurafen capsules down here? They work a lot better and a lot faster too.

So moving is not done yet, there was a small glitch in the system. I need shelf space and I haven’t got any, apart from those in my cupboards. The plan this evening is just to pack the stuff that I have moved into the cupboard whose shelves aren’t packed with clothes and then move them later, I am tired of looking at boxes and they make my room look smaller then it actually is. Selina loves them though, besides being things to climb on they also “slide stoppers”. My floors are parquet so she jumps and sliiiiides across the floor and the only things that stop her are: a) cupboard doors
b) The wall
c) Boxes.
The boxes are the softest objects. She also tends to fail a few of her “jump onto desk” rolls, it’s quite cute actually. Took her to the vet yesterday because she has this nasty sore on the back of her neck. As Princess_Annie assumed, it’s an injection site reaction. Vet gave her another injection and some cream and now we wait for her to let it heal and scratch it open, then let it heal and scratch it open again and then just let it heal.

Work is work as usual, nothing too exciting. We don’t close for “season” so no extra holidays. Training a new receptionist so I don’t die of stress related causes when the other lady in the office goes on leave for 3 weeks. I barely manage my job with out oodles of stress never mind 3 peoples’ jobs.

Jacktar is as wonderful as always. Got reprimanded gently the other day for not waking him when I had nightmares after he woke up to me sobbing when I had had enough of not being able to sleep because of the same nightmare I kept going back into every time I closed my eyes (Don’t remember what the nightmare was, never did, just woke up shaking and on the verge of tears). He seems to be exactly what I have been searching for. Not in the “omg! He’s the perfect guy” type of way, I am too old to believe in perfect, but he is Just Right.

Other then that not much else, cooking for Adeeb's roleplaying group who play at our house. It was stir fry last night and next time I will make something for the meat eaters as well.

Now I really want to try Minato’s in town, my dad just waxed lyrical about it and I am in a very cravy mood and now I crave sushi….bugger!

Back to work….

..birthdays = loot

2005-11-24T02:36:00.000-08:00

So my party was a success, so was the sangria, which Nay renamed gummi berry juice. Thank you for everyone who came and those of you who didnt , well , you suck :P

So my loot added up and i was very happy i brough a plastic bag with.
I got sweeties and chocolates and a pink(???) cowprint picture frame, fluffy cowprint box, cow bath fizz stuff, cow keyring, candles, more chocolate, a pretty moonstone and onyx pendant, a very cool corset bag (now i have a little 1, a medium 1 and a bigger 1) this gorgeous mirror with wrought iron frame, and a cat see:

other then that i am still grinning from ear to ear. Its incredible how one person can change your attitude to life in such a short time. I mean I have know Jacktar since feb this year, and there was nothing previously, now I pine if I dont see him and I find myself doing those cute little things that annoyed me about other people (putting in a welcome note on his phone) and he looks after me, that really throws me because I have always been independent, especially financially, when it comes to men. The guys I went for were always broke with no transport. *sigh* *goes all mushy*

...that some birthdays you remember forever

2005-11-15T08:05:00.000-08:00

So it was my birthday yesterday and I spent most of it wishing that I had taken leave. Work was really being piled on and people were pissing me off and getting pissed off with me because what ever they wanted wasn't done yet not understanding that every one else was saying the same thing. It was horrible, I wanted to cry on my birthday, I didn't though. There was another problem, I had gotten it into my head that my dad was up to somethign for my birthday, in fact I was trying to unconvince myself that he had bought me a new car, you know? Pipe dreams and all that. I just held out looking forward to supper at Moyo and smiling at the birthday wishes I got from my friends. When the time came to go home I did so fast! and got ready for Moyo, tummy grumbling from the thought of all that wonderful grub.

Dinner was great! Besides that ze Germans landed up sitting at a table not far away from us, weord. I ordered a cocktail after my dad eventually said I could have one cause his knee was saw and I might have to drive. It was yummy , I got a moyo Muddle: double vodka, strawberries, mint, crushed ice and a muddle stick with honey on it. For those of you who don't know, a muddle is a cocktail you mix yourself, not blended, you just crush everythign with the stick.

Later my cousin and I went for a walk, I took the opportunity of not having my mom asking me a gazillion questions to sms Jack and my cousin and I stood by 1 of the fires chatting for a bit. Till my sister came up to us to tell us that the troup wanted to sing me a song. So i went and sat down and they sand happy birthday to me in Xosa and English. After which my parent's friends gave me my present from them. A key ring and a Mezuza for the car. So when my parents gave me a box, I knew what was in it! I was too scared to open it incase I was wrog , incase I was right and this was just a dream and whenI opened the box I would wake up. I opened it slowly and there sat a key with a Ford keychain and around the corner sat my new car: A black ford fiesta, I am really glad I didnt wear make up.

So presents count so far:
Collar and cuff set from Jack
Cute window moon from H.I.M. fangirl
Full moon from Mother Nature
Keyring and Mezuza from family friends
and a new Ford Fiesta (which I now need to name)

I am still waiting to wake up, it's just too incredible to believe and here are the pics

..what was said about y'all where you couldnt see

2005-11-11T14:12:00.000-08:00

As most of you know there is a certain girl who doesnt want people to know where her blog is but I was lucky enough to happen apon it by accident and so I am privelged to read it , now there was a blog post she made that I felt all her friends should read and it made me cry so I asked and now bring you, with permission from the author, the reason I cried at work:

And its done...

As ArchAngel said, no big thing. No fanfare, no thunder, no bright neon sign saying "Its done."

I handed my thesis in today.

That's it, my final had in for University. I'm done. That's it, its over. I actually have to start looking for a job, looking for a place in the real world. I have to leave the safe, wonderful, happy place that is University - the place where I managed to find who I am again.

You see, before Varsity I was pretty broken. I didn't like people. To be honest, I didn't have friends. Well, I had friends, but nobody really close. I didn't have very social hobbies either - I read, watched TV, got into internet chatting for a while, until I picked up a boyfriend who ended up stalking me when I didn't really feel anything for him.

Then I got to Varsity. I decided life was going to be different. I was going to have friends. And it started out well, making lots of friends in Res, people doing my course. And then someone introduced me to CLAWs - the roleplaying society on campus.

At first they freaked me out. But after a cup of coffee with all of them (instead of having supper with a brand new couple) I figured out they were ok, not scarey goths (not all of them anyway). Another chance occurance later and I was in the society room, asking the dreaded "what's roleplaying" question to the then really intimidating and scarey guy that I now date. To cut a long story short, I decided it looked like fun and tried it out.

Haven't looked back since. I have real friends now - I lost a few who couldn't understand my weird hobby and why on a friday night I had "commitments" to pretend to be someone else. But the friends I have now...some of them are like family to me. I sometimes can't believe how important they are to me. They support me when I'm down, they're there to talk to when I'm happy. Hell, when my boyfriend went overseas I became very close to a group I hadn't been close to before as they decided to pretty much keep me entertained and my mind off the distance between me and my boyfriend for a little over 2 months. They'd come over and visit til late babysitting me and would sometimes even stay while I had phone calls that must have been over an hour long long with my boyfriend and would try to make me smile when I was teary. One even turned back for me in a situation that was intensly terrifying and that could have risked their life. That's the kind of friends I have now. That's what makes all the little trials and tribulations worth it. And the best thing is, that they let me into their lives too.

Now, it may seem like this tribute to my friends diverts from the subject - but I wouldn't have had the friends I have now without Varsity. And without the support that I've had since first year I would still be in my cold, hard shell. I still am, just a lot more out of it.

During first year my parents commented that I was starting to be more like the spunky little dgirl they once knew instead of the introverted teenager that I had become.

And that's why this end scares me. Varsity has been a constant crucial place for me. Its led to me being the person I am now, knowing the truly marvelous and magnificant people I know. It was my initial link to them, and now I'm leaving.

I know that for the most part, with the people who really make a difference, it won't matter. And my boyfriend will still be here, so I'll keep links through him.

But varsity has been safe. Its been a refuge.

I'm going to miss it.

But moving along is exciting to. And actually writing this has made me realize - all the things that I associate with varsity that make it truly special, they aren't going to go away. It's going to be ok.

You know what. I'm starting to get excited by this now.

It's done. I'm moving on.

Nice to be appriciated isnt it?

...what kind of a goddess I am

2005-11-09T12:56:00.000-08:00

You are 17% Hera

If you possess many of Hera's qualities, you tend to find fulfillment in relationships and look on marriage as a permanent union. In marriage you feel no sense of frustration or resentment because you are an equal partner with your spouse. You are confident and have no trouble asserting your authority in and out of the relationship. You seek men who are self-confident and successful, because you are comfortable with the concept that you can be fulfilled through him (and him through you). As long as your partner honors the marriage as much as you do and appreciates you, you will be happy. If he doesn't, you must concentrate on your own growth and discover an identity independent of him.

You are 17% Hestia

If you embody the qualities of Hestia, you understand the value of having your own sacred place, whether it's an actual room or simply a time of day when you free your mind of busy thoughts and experience peace. While home is your sanctuary, you are at home with yourself wherever you are and no matter who you are with. You know that the meaning of your life springs from your spiritual center. This brings you a great sense of security. You do not crave attention or material possessions; you nurture your friends and family with your unconditional love.

You are 33% Aphrodite

If you are ruled mostly by Aphrodite, your femininity and passionate spirit are the controlling forces in your life. You tend to be charismatic and self-assured, comfortable with your body, and unrestrained sexually. Men are drawn to you like bees to flowers; which this satisfies your erotic nature. However, you tend not to form permanent attachments with lovers because you value your sexual freedom, and this may leave you feeling lonely and even depleted once a relationship ends. To find and form a more lasting relationship, you need to add more of the goddess Hera to your life.

You are 8% Athena

If you are ruled by Athena, you are bright-eyed, shrewd, resourceful, and inventive. With friends, you are the wise counselor—always ready with an empowering message. You believe strongly that women can accomplish anything men can. No wonder you put so much time into your career! Athena women tend to be ruled by their heads, not by their hearts. You carefully guard your intimate side, protecting your emotions and vulnerability. If you want to awaken your unexpressed womanliness, you'll have to use the same passion you apply to your intellectual achievements. It's important that you work to integrate your strong masculine side with your feminine side—bringing together your strength and your vulnerability, your creativity and your caring, your intelligence and your imagination. Allow your aspects of the goddesses Hestia and Aphrodite to help you do this.

You are 0% Artemis

If you are ruled by Artemis, you are an independent spirit and belong to no one but yourself. Your body is vibrant, your attitude robust ,and your manner vigorous and alive. You are driven by physical rather than mental energy. You feel complete without a man in your life and would never compromise your essential nature for a romantic partner. You are skilled at establishing personal boundaries and enter into relationships on your own terms—in short, you can take care of yourself. This attitude may at times put men off.

You are 8% Persephone

If you exemplify the qualities of Persephone, you have an ethereal, otherworldly air about you and are highly creative. Your youthful spirit shines through no matter what your age. You are also familiar with either emotional or physical loss. This experience has forced you to face the dark, unenlightened side of yourself and transform yourself into a stronger, more independent, more accepting, and more compassion person. It may have also led you down a spiritual path and moved you to place great emphasis on inner calm and on close connections with friends. You are capable of embracing, integrating, and accepting difficult experiences. Because of this skill, you offer others the gift of empathy—you understand what others have been through.

You are 17% Demeter

If you fit the Demeter archetype, you are a nurturer and caretaker. You have a generous heart and enjoy extending your love to others. You are motivated by the most powerful of instincts—to give life and to selflessly devote yourself to the life you create. You feel compelled to care for all those around you, even if they are not your own children. In short, you feel the need to be all things to all people, and therefore your own needs sometimes go unmet. You must learn to say no, applying Artemis's sense of boundaries and Aphrodite's ability to put herself first. That way, you can give to others from an overflowing rather than a half-full cup.

http://www.sevengoddesses.com/goddess.php

that my life isnt all that bad

2005-11-08T14:18:00.000-08:00

When I told an Ozzie friend of mine that I am in a good place and he said "why? where are you?" but seriously I am in a good place mentally and emotionally.

T minus 26 days and counting till we move into our new place and I am so very excited, and nervous but more then that I am feeling this relief wash over me, like there is no more uncertaunty and pipe dreams of moving out, I am _actually_ doing it, Saturday we are signing the lease and that will be the final step of securing the place.

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Other then that there is Jacktar. Some one I have know for almost a year, some one I see at least once a month and now some one who makes me happy and feel sexy and all those wonderful things you feel when some body wants you and cares. There were a few obsticals we needed to get around and they all went really soomthly. Now he also some one I see every time he can get here from Hout Bay and isn't working. For those of you who will be there he may be at Solstalkers birfday and he will deffinately be at mine.

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So work is a nightmare but I dont care because I have some one to sms, or house related things to sort out and I am happy. Not because good things are happening to other people but because good things are happening to me ...finally!

oh and for those who want to know what Jack looks like:

...20 Random things about me

2005-10-25T16:30:00.000-07:00

So I was tagged and from what I can gather this means I need to share 20 random things peopkle don't know about me. Well I dont kniw fi I can fill 20 but I will try my best.

1. When I was little (like 2) I used to bite the fingers of anyone who would put foodin my mouth using their fingers
2. I started collecting miniture perfume bottles because I wanted to be better at it then a family friend of ours
3. I am scared of heights and thats why I love doing things that involve heights
4. I am very turned by a guy with nice hands
5. I have Fear Of Missing Out syndrome
6. I used to be a Backstreet Boys fangirl
7. I once ripped my sisters earlobe in two by pressing her head down to the floor and pulling her back up not realising her earing got stuck in the carpet
8. My sister and I used to have fist fights
9. Until living in Israel for a year I hated Cape Town and wanted to go back to jhb.
10. I used to run away at least once a week when I was 10
11. I wrote a whole bunch of love letters to a crush and never sent them.
12. I am scared of every alienating people because I am scared of being left with no one
13. I get through boring mundane stuff like driving home from work by day dreaming that I am driving with some one else
14. I used to be uber shy and preffered staying at home
15. I am a cat person to the point where I feel uncomfortable around dogs
16. my sister and I shared a room till I was 14 and she was 11
17. I onced had a whole argument with my mother believing I could find comfort with the school councler which has actually left the school and I had only remembered this after getting to school
18. My drink of choice is double tequila and lime
19. on kibbutz i used to leave work an hour earlier then I was meant to
20. I love city life

..this last week has been intresting

2005-10-14T10:55:00.000-07:00

Monday was avrage, mondays are usually not that intresting.

Tuesday was fun, had some very yummy canneloni, if you know me ask me about it I cannot devulge much else in public.

Wednesday started fasting, which was alright this year exept for being very thirsty.

Thursday saw my Mira again, she is sooo tiny, we were trying to keep her awake but she was having none of that, we can just try and she will sleep through the attempts

more pictures can be found at : http://davidm.sjsoft.com/mira

on thursday night went over to friends flat and chilled, watching SIMs nightlife and just generally chatting.

yay full weekend ahead

..that I'm a God Mommy

2005-10-09T23:58:00.000-07:00

8th of October 2005 @ 7:58am my God Daughter was born. 3.56kg and a head full of hair Mira Galadriel pieterkosky Moore came into the world after 23 hours of labour.

I have been swooning and smiling since then, happy that everything went well and both parents came out of this alive and well (but utterly exhausted).

I spent 3-4pm on both saturday and sunday sitting in their hospital room looking at her and holding her on saturday.

I have been appointed the Mother's personal assistant, so it was me updating the masses over the labour period and me who informs people they can go visit etc. I dont mind at all , I a happy to help when ever and where ever I can.

Unfortunatly I am stuck at work today so I cant go through to the hospital today :( but its fine because it gives the extended families a chance to go there and see her.

For those of you reading this who know the parents and want to see the baby there will be a tea organised for a viewing. We were thinking of getting Rawson Properties to organise it but since we want to keep all the money to ourselves, her granny is doing it :P I will keep any one instrested posted...

and on another note, here is a picture of her:

...that sometimes I wish I wasn't me

2005-10-06T21:30:00.000-07:00

I have too many clothes...
That don't fit me , too little that do.
Maybe to some my life is exciting, to me it's mundane...go to to work>come home>eat>sleep>go to work>etc.

Sometimes I see friends

movies

mostly I am too tired to do anything...go to sleep tired, wake up tired.

I am forever trying to get thinner in a world where walking skeletons are considered beautiful

my friends love me why cant I find a man who does. I would settle for a boy if its true love...Settle, seems I do that a lot.
Settle for my job
Settle for living at home
Settle for my mediocre life....I'd settle for a shag

Well I wouldn't anymore, not that deciding to only look for meaningful relationships has helped.

Hila you are a great friend

Hila I love you...as a friend

A girl can only have so many friends before she gets lonely...

Don't get me wrong I love my friends, I just wish it wasn't just friends I had to love.

It's funny how when you are alone and single and loving it, you look at all the people breaking up and think "I'm glad I don't have that kind of BS in my life"

When you are single and lonely and hating it, you look at all the people getting together, staying together, getting engaged, getting married and think "What is wrong with me that I can have that in my life?"

Some of my friends sabotage their relationships and I watch as the relationship tragically falls apart at the seems because they made the first rip...

I have friends who hold out their hands and get phone numbers,l then crumple them up and throw them to the rose bushes and wonder why they are alone.

How am I ruining my chances at a healthy relationship?What am I doing wrong? Can nobody tell me?

Now its time to sleep and go back to my mediocre life.

At least tomorrow is friday...

I got DICE!

2005-09-29T07:35:00.000-07:00

Well my parents came home yesterday. Happy and sad about it but mostly relieved because of my mother’s dog. The brought us presents that they bought for us and a family sent through as birthday presents because they won’t be here for that. I got shoes, sunglasses, a watch, fairies to hang up in my room (which I will keep safely wrapped in their protective bubble wrap for when I move in December), earrings, a flashy thing for my phone, hand cream, perfume (and they had a special on so I got my perfume plus body lotion and shower gel with the same fragrance, they smell just as good as the perfume), Ahava stuff, a ring (that got squashed in the luggage so now we need to find a jeweler that can make it round again) and DICE , I got pretty purple and black dice. No points for guessing which was my favourite present…

Edit: I also got sugarings which is the wax that bodyshop makes, its the best wax i have ever used to date

On that note, was reading through Nobilis some more last night and realised that the Dice nut is planning on running a diceless system. More pressure on me as the DM (or HG in this system) to create more visual settings and more pressure on my players to actually _role_play and not roll play. It is a very shiny system, I am not sure if I can be a shiny DM.

Well maybe I will write more later

ooo Real life zombies

2005-09-28T16:33:00.000-07:00

Today was generally univentful. Went to work bright and early as usual, sat here till 12:30 then went to fetch my dad's car from BMW. The guy in charge forgot that it was sposed to be ready by then so he gave us his car to fetch my parent's from the airport with. New 5 series turbo diesel and that car pisses off like you cannot believe. I was sooooo nervous because the car wasnt mine or my dad's and belonged to a complete stranger. Anyway go to the airport fine and the car was devine to drive.

On another note http://65.127.124.62/south_asia/4483241.stm.htm

Still at work, get to leave early to go to my dietician then home to see what I got from overseas. So far I know for sure there is a bottle of perfume, a tub of sugarings (wax from bodyshop) a pair of shoes and a ring....wonder what else

Other peoples mistakes

2005-09-27T16:30:00.000-07:00

So there is 55 minutes left of work and surprisingly this part of the day always goes quickly. Today in general has been waaahaay too long.

Weekend: Friday night started at Gotham and there was NO1 there, well that’s not entirely true but you get my point, so I went next door to one ring to join the zombies. I put in my fangs and became the token vampire…
Had lots of fun until the bouncer kicked us out cause he was tired. I wasn’t however having enough fun and I was definitely not drunk enough to join the group that went to corner house..yuch.

Saturday went to play changeling and landed up watching some one else play Fables. Played a bit of changeling. Took Ultixan and Klepht back to res and went home. Watched a few more episodes of smallville and discovered to my horror that the last few episodes are corrupt! *le sigh*. Started getting read for the 80’s party at about 7 and was ready to go by 8…killed time till 8:30 and went to go fetch ElegantlyWasted. 80’s party was gr8. Haven’t danced that much in a long time and the new docs make dancing a pleasure. Not too heavy that I can only stomp like my New Rocks are and there is no heal to make my feet sore.

Sunday I took ElegantlyWasted home, fetched my sister from her friend, went home and fell asleep on the couch. Woke up and got ready for game went down stairs and realised I had left my dash lights on since 10:30 that morning, it was now 6. Called M&D and they came to the rescue. Luckily only needed a bit of a boost. Game was ok, we were all very tired and BabyAcid got to be all perky about it cause he couldn’t go out the night before cause he crashed his car in the driveway…

Yesterday went really quickly, probably because I was stressing so much and there in lies the reason for the heading of this post. The 1 audit company lost all our information. So I had to do a year-to-date. I thought I had to finish it by Monday afternoon but when I called for an extension she said I only had to have it in by the end of the week…grrr. Watched Eurotrip again yesterday…I love that movie! Was in bed by 9:30 *shock*

Today has been so so slow. I am glad its almost over. Got to wash the dog and make supper, parents are coming home tomorrow. Good and bad I guess. Might go to gandalf’s tonight …we’ll see…

20 holes make stairs

2005-09-23T01:55:00.000-07:00

20 holes make stairs interesting.

W00t! On Wednesday night I got a pair of 20-hole Docs from a really good friend of mine who came down from the UK for a visit. Today I am wearing them and they are very very stiff. Walking down the stairs…or should I say ambling because my legs had to work in weird ways to prevent me falling over.

Realised today what a dire situation we have at work at the moment when it comes to panel beaters. We were struggling before because we were 1 panel beater short but now another one resigned and the work load is huge. I hope we find another one soon…

Everyone is going to the zombie thing tonight and I realised that I really have no energy for it. Sounds like awesome fun but between being obliged to go to dinner with family friends and just the general tiredness of day to day I just don’t feel like it. I hope everyone has loads of fun and I will see those of you going in brief snippets at the after party since I will be in my usual spot next door at Gotham.

It’s 80’s night tomorrow night at Gotham and I don’t know what to wear. Google images has been useless for a change so I think I need to speak to some of the Goths who were there at the time. I will _not_ wear neon pink!

Went to dinner and M&D’s. I really needed that time with them it has been waahaay too long since we’ve done something like that. What’s weird is since we set the date for the dinner we have spent a lot of time together suddenly. Sunday night I stayed for about an hour after game just chatting, Monday we went shopping for BabyAcid’s presents and landed up having coffee at Love, Revenge, Cappuccino (side note: they have the most incredible fridge marble cheesecake. They use whipped cream cheese, which sounds gross but trust me really is divine. Their chocolate fudge cake is also a must) chatting and spending time together. Wed night after movie night as well. Then Thursday’s supper. Butternut tagliatelli and salad and for desert apple crumble and assort…almond sticks.

4 more hours left of work and then I get to play the avoidance and honesty game :P

The End of an Era

2005-09-21T23:36:00.000-07:00

It’s funny how people mark the end of an era. Take my best friend from high school for instance. When I was in Israel she was in the UK, she told me she wasn’t coming back to SA and I cried like my world was ending. She did come and for a short while things were “like old times”. Then Wikus came along and Natalie spent more time with him then her friends. I spent so long trying to put us back to how we used to be, complaining about how things had changed because she was dating Wik. We stopped working at the same place and slowly started seeing less of each other. I didn’t see her for about a year and when I did I realized that although she had changed entirely so had I. She just didn’t fit into my life anymore.

Craig is another one. My first time was with Craig and that turned into a 5 year fuck buddy relationship. I would call him when I felt like a shag and visa versa. If we were free we would shag. When my cell phone was stolen the first time I did my best to get his number again and when he sms’d me I was so happy, this time my phone was stolen, I have made no attempt to get his number and he hasn’t sms’d me and you know what? I don’t care; I don’t want that kind of relationship anymore.

It’s funny how people mark the end of an era; it’s always the important ones. The ones you obsessed over. The ones you were going to love forever, be best friends with forever, need forever. They just don’t fit anymore.

I'm weak ok?

2005-09-21T16:20:00.000-07:00

So I was reading every ones blogs from the bottom of the first blog on the first page and so got pulled into this mad craze that is Blogspot....

Today has been a little bit intresting and should be more intresting tonight..yay.

The first half of the day has been frustrating intresting. Now I dont know about you but when I open my door and it happens to open into the road I try get out and close it as soon as possible for fear of having my door removed by some one driving to fast and out of respect for whatever person should be driving up to that section of road , cause it really pisses _me_ off when some one stands there with the door open into the road, there ass hanging out fidgiting in the passanger seat for something! Honestly cant people just walk to the other side of the car and open the passanger seat door and get it there? Just another thing that pisses me off on the road. The list so far goes as such:

People who take their time turning, especially at filter arrows that dont last longer then a minute.
Taxis
Jaywalkers
People who press the button the pedestrian only traffic lights to cross(can't they jaywalk dammit!)
People who's driving capabilities have reached their sell by dates
People who's cars have reached their use by date
People who dont service their car and therefore have oil leaks in their exhaust pipe(if I wanted to pollute my lungs I would light up a cigarette)
People who cut me off
People who forgot how to use their indicator when they got the shiney new car (all these buttons which 1 is the indicator? oooo a cup holder...that will do)
Trucks!(this is a problem since I work in an industrial area)
CY Licence plates (Yes that includes BabyAcid :P)

I think I've ranted enough. Tonight i get to see Rob , he's here form the UK and he has brought with him Docs...for me!

yay