..birthdays = loot

So my party was a success, so was the sangria, which Nay renamed gummi berry juice. Thank you for everyone who came and those of you who didnt , well , you suck :P

So my loot added up and i was very happy i brough a plastic bag with.
I got sweeties and chocolates and a pink(???) cowprint picture frame, fluffy cowprint box, cow bath fizz stuff, cow keyring, candles, more chocolate, a pretty moonstone and onyx pendant, a very cool corset bag (now i have a little 1, a medium 1 and a bigger 1) this gorgeous mirror with wrought iron frame, and a cat see:


















other then that i am still grinning from ear to ear. Its incredible how one person can change your attitude to life in such a short time. I mean I have know Jacktar since feb this year, and there was nothing previously, now I pine if I dont see him and I find myself doing those cute little things that annoyed me about other people (putting in a welcome note on his phone) and he looks after me, that really throws me because I have always been independent, especially financially, when it comes to men. The guys I went for were always broke with no transport. *sigh* *goes all mushy*

...that some birthdays you remember forever

So it was my birthday yesterday and I spent most of it wishing that I had taken leave. Work was really being piled on and people were pissing me off and getting pissed off with me because what ever they wanted wasn't done yet not understanding that every one else was saying the same thing. It was horrible, I wanted to cry on my birthday, I didn't though. There was another problem, I had gotten it into my head that my dad was up to somethign for my birthday, in fact I was trying to unconvince myself that he had bought me a new car, you know? Pipe dreams and all that. I just held out looking forward to supper at Moyo and smiling at the birthday wishes I got from my friends. When the time came to go home I did so fast! and got ready for Moyo, tummy grumbling from the thought of all that wonderful grub.

Dinner was great! Besides that ze Germans landed up sitting at a table not far away from us, weord. I ordered a cocktail after my dad eventually said I could have one cause his knee was saw and I might have to drive. It was yummy , I got a moyo Muddle: double vodka, strawberries, mint, crushed ice and a muddle stick with honey on it. For those of you who don't know, a muddle is a cocktail you mix yourself, not blended, you just crush everythign with the stick.

Later my cousin and I went for a walk, I took the opportunity of not having my mom asking me a gazillion questions to sms Jack and my cousin and I stood by 1 of the fires chatting for a bit. Till my sister came up to us to tell us that the troup wanted to sing me a song. So i went and sat down and they sand happy birthday to me in Xosa and English. After which my parent's friends gave me my present from them. A key ring and a Mezuza for the car. So when my parents gave me a box, I knew what was in it! I was too scared to open it incase I was wrog , incase I was right and this was just a dream and whenI opened the box I would wake up. I opened it slowly and there sat a key with a Ford keychain and around the corner sat my new car: A black ford fiesta, I am really glad I didnt wear make up.

So presents count so far:
Collar and cuff set from Jack
Cute window moon from H.I.M. fangirl
Full moon from Mother Nature
Keyring and Mezuza from family friends
and a new Ford Fiesta (which I now need to name)

I am still waiting to wake up, it's just too incredible to believe and here are the pics

..what was said about y'all where you couldnt see

As most of you know there is a certain girl who doesnt want people to know where her blog is but I was lucky enough to happen apon it by accident and so I am privelged to read it , now there was a blog post she made that I felt all her friends should read and it made me cry so I asked and now bring you, with permission from the author, the reason I cried at work:

And its done...

As ArchAngel said, no big thing. No fanfare, no thunder, no bright neon sign saying "Its done."

I handed my thesis in today.

That's it, my final had in for University. I'm done. That's it, its over. I actually have to start looking for a job, looking for a place in the real world. I have to leave the safe, wonderful, happy place that is University - the place where I managed to find who I am again.

You see, before Varsity I was pretty broken. I didn't like people. To be honest, I didn't have friends. Well, I had friends, but nobody really close. I didn't have very social hobbies either - I read, watched TV, got into internet chatting for a while, until I picked up a boyfriend who ended up stalking me when I didn't really feel anything for him.

Then I got to Varsity. I decided life was going to be different. I was going to have friends. And it started out well, making lots of friends in Res, people doing my course. And then someone introduced me to CLAWs - the roleplaying society on campus.

At first they freaked me out. But after a cup of coffee with all of them (instead of having supper with a brand new couple) I figured out they were ok, not scarey goths (not all of them anyway). Another chance occurance later and I was in the society room, asking the dreaded "what's roleplaying" question to the then really intimidating and scarey guy that I now date. To cut a long story short, I decided it looked like fun and tried it out.

Haven't looked back since. I have real friends now - I lost a few who couldn't understand my weird hobby and why on a friday night I had "commitments" to pretend to be someone else. But the friends I have now...some of them are like family to me. I sometimes can't believe how important they are to me. They support me when I'm down, they're there to talk to when I'm happy. Hell, when my boyfriend went overseas I became very close to a group I hadn't been close to before as they decided to pretty much keep me entertained and my mind off the distance between me and my boyfriend for a little over 2 months. They'd come over and visit til late babysitting me and would sometimes even stay while I had phone calls that must have been over an hour long long with my boyfriend and would try to make me smile when I was teary. One even turned back for me in a situation that was intensly terrifying and that could have risked their life. That's the kind of friends I have now. That's what makes all the little trials and tribulations worth it. And the best thing is, that they let me into their lives too.

Now, it may seem like this tribute to my friends diverts from the subject - but I wouldn't have had the friends I have now without Varsity. And without the support that I've had since first year I would still be in my cold, hard shell. I still am, just a lot more out of it.

During first year my parents commented that I was starting to be more like the spunky little dgirl they once knew instead of the introverted teenager that I had become.

And that's why this end scares me. Varsity has been a constant crucial place for me. Its led to me being the person I am now, knowing the truly marvelous and magnificant people I know. It was my initial link to them, and now I'm leaving.

I know that for the most part, with the people who really make a difference, it won't matter. And my boyfriend will still be here, so I'll keep links through him.

But varsity has been safe. Its been a refuge.

I'm going to miss it.

But moving along is exciting to. And actually writing this has made me realize - all the things that I associate with varsity that make it truly special, they aren't going to go away. It's going to be ok.

You know what. I'm starting to get excited by this now.

It's done. I'm moving on.

Nice to be appriciated isnt it?

...what kind of a goddess I am

You are 17% Hera

If you possess many of Hera's qualities, you tend to find fulfillment in relationships and look on marriage as a permanent union. In marriage you feel no sense of frustration or resentment because you are an equal partner with your spouse. You are confident and have no trouble asserting your authority in and out of the relationship. You seek men who are self-confident and successful, because you are comfortable with the concept that you can be fulfilled through him (and him through you). As long as your partner honors the marriage as much as you do and appreciates you, you will be happy. If he doesn't, you must concentrate on your own growth and discover an identity independent of him.

You are 17% Hestia

If you embody the qualities of Hestia, you understand the value of having your own sacred place, whether it's an actual room or simply a time of day when you free your mind of busy thoughts and experience peace. While home is your sanctuary, you are at home with yourself wherever you are and no matter who you are with. You know that the meaning of your life springs from your spiritual center. This brings you a great sense of security. You do not crave attention or material possessions; you nurture your friends and family with your unconditional love.

You are 33% Aphrodite

If you are ruled mostly by Aphrodite, your femininity and passionate spirit are the controlling forces in your life. You tend to be charismatic and self-assured, comfortable with your body, and unrestrained sexually. Men are drawn to you like bees to flowers; which this satisfies your erotic nature. However, you tend not to form permanent attachments with lovers because you value your sexual freedom, and this may leave you feeling lonely and even depleted once a relationship ends. To find and form a more lasting relationship, you need to add more of the goddess Hera to your life.

You are 8% Athena

If you are ruled by Athena, you are bright-eyed, shrewd, resourceful, and inventive. With friends, you are the wise counselor—always ready with an empowering message. You believe strongly that women can accomplish anything men can. No wonder you put so much time into your career! Athena women tend to be ruled by their heads, not by their hearts. You carefully guard your intimate side, protecting your emotions and vulnerability. If you want to awaken your unexpressed womanliness, you'll have to use the same passion you apply to your intellectual achievements. It's important that you work to integrate your strong masculine side with your feminine side—bringing together your strength and your vulnerability, your creativity and your caring, your intelligence and your imagination. Allow your aspects of the goddesses Hestia and Aphrodite to help you do this.

You are 0% Artemis

If you are ruled by Artemis, you are an independent spirit and belong to no one but yourself. Your body is vibrant, your attitude robust ,and your manner vigorous and alive. You are driven by physical rather than mental energy. You feel complete without a man in your life and would never compromise your essential nature for a romantic partner. You are skilled at establishing personal boundaries and enter into relationships on your own terms—in short, you can take care of yourself. This attitude may at times put men off.

You are 8% Persephone

If you exemplify the qualities of Persephone, you have an ethereal, otherworldly air about you and are highly creative. Your youthful spirit shines through no matter what your age. You are also familiar with either emotional or physical loss. This experience has forced you to face the dark, unenlightened side of yourself and transform yourself into a stronger, more independent, more accepting, and more compassion person. It may have also led you down a spiritual path and moved you to place great emphasis on inner calm and on close connections with friends. You are capable of embracing, integrating, and accepting difficult experiences. Because of this skill, you offer others the gift of empathy—you understand what others have been through.

You are 17% Demeter

If you fit the Demeter archetype, you are a nurturer and caretaker. You have a generous heart and enjoy extending your love to others. You are motivated by the most powerful of instincts—to give life and to selflessly devote yourself to the life you create. You feel compelled to care for all those around you, even if they are not your own children. In short, you feel the need to be all things to all people, and therefore your own needs sometimes go unmet. You must learn to say no, applying Artemis's sense of boundaries and Aphrodite's ability to put herself first. That way, you can give to others from an overflowing rather than a half-full cup. http://www.sevengoddesses.com/goddess.php

that my life isnt all that bad

When I told an Ozzie friend of mine that I am in a good place and he said "why? where are you?" but seriously I am in a good place mentally and emotionally.

T minus 26 days and counting till we move into our new place and I am so very excited, and nervous but more then that I am feeling this relief wash over me, like there is no more uncertaunty and pipe dreams of moving out, I am _actually_ doing it, Saturday we are signing the lease and that will be the final step of securing the place.

and now for a quick break:


You are a true nature girl!


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Other then that there is Jacktar. Some one I have know for almost a year, some one I see at least once a month and now some one who makes me happy and feel sexy and all those wonderful things you feel when some body wants you and cares. There were a few obsticals we needed to get around and they all went really soomthly. Now he also some one I see every time he can get here from Hout Bay and isn't working. For those of you who will be there he may be at Solstalkers birfday and he will deffinately be at mine.

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You want people to shape up, and you nag. But
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So work is a nightmare but I dont care because I have some one to sms, or house related things to sort out and I am happy. Not because good things are happening to other people but because good things are happening to me ...finally!

oh and for those who want to know what Jack looks like: